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After the show, I spun around in the "KM" and "Moscow", the energy in the twenty years has nowhere to go and podzaletel. The investigation lasted all summer. Remains under house arrest, was able to meet and still enrolled at MSU in the art history department in the history department. The first entrance examination took me Kirillov - a connoisseur of architecture of the twenties, about issues in the ticket it is immediately forgotten. Talked about the Aude, de style, Bauhaus, it lasted more than an hour, the rest examinee's eyes bulged, as they, in fact my ticket Konchalovsky and Leonardo fell. Incidentally, I should add that in Inostranka, in addition to studying davdtsatogo century and routine, I was engaged in the general history of art. In Nekrasovskaya I took Mutter, Winckelmann, Ruskin, the pre-revolutionary edition, there was a good fund. Brood benefits were the books of the Western publishers, they could only look in the reading room foreigners. He taught me everything thoroughly, the old masters, I spend time almost every day. My calculations of the similarity of the Tel-Amarna, Pompeii frescoes, Rococo and Impressionism would have been impossible without this knowledge. Particular attention I paid trecento and Quattrocento, reproductions of these artists I enjoy looking through so far. About Konchalovsky on the exam I could napet something tolerable, well, it's not a trick, it could be any examinee girl, when you receive them there for a dozen children were more than a hundred. Kirillov, I think, take into account my perspective, applicants with such knowledge it is unlikely to come across. Of the sixty-fifth classmates remember only Sasha Rozhina and all the blondes.

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March 30, 1966 Lenin prosecution investigator Hamzaj sent me for examination cronies were sitting, and I was hoping that slipped (my case was handled separately) - dick. Popal first for examination in Kashchenko, and then in Serbia - where I'm stuck between June and October, said that in the Serb-fed is much better than in Kashchenko staff there probably is more difficult to steal. They put me in the 6 th Division, the people there was a steep, but all behaved peacefully: otzhiralis and slept. Guard in a robe on top form every fifty minutes in the smoking room out. Every Monday bypass, a professor with his retinue of beautiful women. My doctor was Larisa, slim young woman, energetic, yet remember Sophia Mikhailovna and Elga Stefanovna whose name no one there had not been presented. The first commission was a month before it was taken on the fourth floor, on the "satellite", saw the equipment, "Sanjio", it seems. They opened up in boksik, shod on the head of some electrodes with clips, dark, and then began to burn slowly in front of the window and - again, a hundred-watt bulb from the side, then some other feints with sound. When I got out, saw a broad belt with schedules issued by the machine. When was consulted in the smoking room - some said that they thought well read, and most knew that all this *** ta - identify the defective parts of the brain. Was a psychologist: stacked images, cubes all, thirteen of the hundred-consuming under sekundometr. Who wanted were taken to the basement of occupational therapy, work with cardboard, so that some even something like nizhnits issued.

Drawing I started with the second or third day, still in office. There was nothing, just listening to the loudspeaker, the librarian came only a week later. Diagnosis I needed Grukh, mow I do not really know how, in Kashchenko made unsuccessfully. In the madhouse before that only once was, and what a madhouse - Clinic Korsakov. Gave me the paper, five sheets is, small size were not used to me, had to change, also gave a box of old watercolors and colored pencils, Larisa promote. Paper little, and the time in bulk, had to abandon my Surge negligence.

Muscovites in Serbia almost no people were from all over the Union, "trot", the term all the rush of big, sheluponyu dealt with in the field. A year before the examination, I worked in "Mosknige" on a poster-font paper, filled his hand in oformitelstve, "loschakovskaya" school, quickly and accurately. Such a profession in the Union gives the relative independence and the opportunity to draw in any isolation. In occupational therapy in the basement provided me with a room, gave them ads, and wall newspapers. In their work, I continued to enter text, but the calculation became more definite. For example, carefully made couple of planes, flying as an attraction in Gorky Park, accompanied by the text: "uniform circular motion in a circle alternately allows pilots to monitor each other's tails." The work consisted of drawing a few leaves, held together by sticking plaster, such as fixing a very convenient, I used them all the time follow prinudki. Folded all fit into small folders can be kept under the mattress. Did I have air cavalry "," difficult work raskachivateley elevator, etc. Once I was given a room in the basement, I could use the state-owned board, without limitation, making another announcement, I could work for them before dinner. The evenings in the office, on the edge of the dining table doing little "drawing" of work, domino, females, great nuisance. In my workroom, I hung large cardboard - "The front and the other side of the tank, seemingly projects deforming camouflage, right though to the Ministry of Defense to send, some specially beautiful" Kandinsky ".

After 28 days - the Commission, resulted in a narrow room along the wall were 7.8 doctors and interns. In the corner of the table Osip Evgenievich (if not mistaken), went to different questions. Then the trouble of waiting for Thursday, the day of the import and carries out Butyrki, no, gone, the next 28 days, you need not worry, then slipped or somebody had a "special" view. Then after a year or two, I learned a lot about their criteria, they were primarily a social perspective or a danger to the camps in bulk obvious fools among prinudchikov I had not seen them, there has to squint to anything. "Tyulkogony" deemed irresponsible to believe that they are cunning, no shit, they decided the fate of the circulars and the Interior Ministry, to some extent, a lottery. I told Larisa on exhibition at the Institute of Biophysics and almost everything about myself and what I was hiding, I realized that with the proper filing of my biography, I deserve one hundred percent correct diagnosis to me. Then I did not even know about the long prinudkah, thought it was only for the obviously dangerous loonies. One guard took me to work in their assembly zal.Tam paintings were photographed, spoke to me a few people. Larisa then said that there was very Morozov. She also said that he took a lilac "Kandinsky himself, seemingly as my gift. Of course, what it was about, Row yes you are, but not arrested. The second commission, as I understand, it all ended well, it lasted a few minutes, a couple of questions and all.

People brought and taken away. 53rd and 54th Chamber Butyrki given replenishment. Some, it was a few times, tried to resist the return shipment, guard closed all three of the "house" and urged his boots. They kept me for another three months, I worked, time passed quickly, the anxiety left me. In September, finally took the court from me was a lawyer, go insane do not transport. Dali prinudku "on a common basis", c /o Ministry of Internal Affairs sent a special hospital, a terrible thing. Works I've done a lot and when I was told that everything should stay with them, I got mad, I have already forgotten that he was ready for a couple of months ago. From the Serbian, by their rules, it was impossible to remove even a piece of paper, and then a huge pack. A couple of days Larisa tried to do something. I podzavel himself to the fact that in the toilet made me designs on hands: lit and extinguished cigarettes on fourteen external hand brushes - pattern. Stated that this is only the beginning. The answer was immediate - sulfazin to increase from three to twelve blocks. There are not zalupneshsya. The drug that seems to be invented in the last century, for its preparation are taking a piece of sulfur in the heat sterilizer bottle of sunflower oil in it that sulfur crumble. Called me in protsedurku, vporoli thick needle prick, or sulfur would not have gone. I went out, no effects found than intimidating. My hands slipped Zelenko, cause it was all morning. At eight o'clock in the evening a certain chill, the spot was very painful. Move could only be based on the wall. The nurse put her at 11 o'clock the thermometer - above forty, the state of unpleasant. Note that when undergoing chlorpromazine, already compared prinudke - sulfazin still easier on the brain is not pressing. A good dose of chlorpromazine from any kitten will do. On the third day the temperature subsided - go back ass pass up. Injections of those I appointed Larisa, it was humanely, as in similar cases, and more threats, I could safely get sulfazin in four points. Then walk would have under him in the early days, horseradish ascend.

A month later I was finally sent to Kashchenko in the 1st Division, "polubespokoynoe" to Igor Pavlovich Alferov. Yes, my work, I still stood up, not all, of course, but important to me in the future. Larisa has made this almost impossible thing. Morozov, the stories are extremely pertinacious cheloveek.

The question arises - whether I am mentally healthy, I do not know me personally, it never stopped. Kashchenko - a town of about 4000 people. Country fools. Alferov me rides immediately, lie down, said quietly, after six months, put the conference. I was allowed to work in workshops, artists in the room on the second floor. A couple of weeks looked around, observing the work for me was not. Got hold of his shirt and calmly be absent for half an hour through a hole in the fence, buy port wine, was treated. He did New Year decoration, something that even the "left", for the money. Zamelo me buhogo before the New Year - got to chlorpromazine. A couple of weeks to get up from bed could not, in the studios released only in late February, and then from 10 am to 12.30. The mood was good, spring, I worked a lot, oil on Money for cardboard. Admitted to the hospital, Vladimir Yakovlev, worked together in two or three weeks, he, however, pushed him and ceased to produce. Walls in hudkomnate from top to bottom were covered paintings. Symbolists, abstractionists, surrealists, every creature on the pair. Enter able to enjoy any simple or complicated academic physician. They were taken and their friends, and others are begging for work at zavmasterskimi, Matthew Aronovich. Who's supposed to, he refused. The atmosphere there was a creative, you no harassment or malicious newspaper critics. Absolutely legal exposition, almost a branch Manege. The authorities in the academic body knew about Volodins works, many of them had, Yakovlev's work were well known in Moscow and some people in the West. By Kashchenko drove the delegation, it was engaged in smart Marat Vartanian. Once he went to hudkomnatu, I saw my tanks and planes, like thoroughness. Hang with him a few new Volodins works. A few days later, Marat came with some western people, they all took off camera. Such a show has worked well for careerists type Vartanian, fooling Western psychiatrists it professionally. I rashly decided to play the role of guide and boldly spoke in English. This Marat expect from me, could not, but to do something "with the people" was not able to. All at once I was surrounded, "fool" in his pajamas, and is able to speak, about ten minutes I was in a state of euphoria. Marat meanwhile, went into the corridor, he returned, he immediately went and the nurse called me on the procedure. I came to his senses, well, bitch, I think, again narvalsya, then at least in the case, but now because of these *** plets. They brought to the department, Igor Pavlovich, to my surprise, sulfazin not appointed, carried. A few more months, the case for the conference. In the summer I started to go guys and girls. One came in the evening, to a certain shift, half a kilo of "bears" and walked flaw to two or three hours of the night, trust me, I was almost vypisnoy. Once back great daty, grappled with prinudchikom (we've always been in the department of human three or four). Had a lot of noise, in the morning is Alferov, he has to stand up all the reported change, competitors. Well, of course, sulfazin, conference overturned. Reprimanded the entire shift, how he had bought. In order to avoid, I was transferred to the Third Division, to Anna Abramovna Kazarnovskaya, the regime a little bit worse, the work output. Calculated that go out except for New Year. Branch was a good composition, glushnyaka less, but on a quiet part of many intellectuals. Only Israel's Arabs horns posshibat '- Kazarnovskaya shoved demonstrators at the embassy, I remember Shrapina, son of newscaster. He hung around for about a month, with this pope no longer hold, and not for anything.


A week later I was transferred to a quiet half and I completely went to work, did a very labor-intensive graphics planes. Spent no less than a week at each time I regret it was not necessary. In the 3 rd branch - cleanliness is very good for precise work, for disposition. Lyrics I have continued to impose by inertia, although it was understood that the method is cheap and thereafter such Makarov began "rescue" a failed compositions. Use English - fewer questions from the doctors. And then - why, they say, "revolutionary Avengers. Madame Kazarnovskaya for a long time working in psychiatry so ebnulas that even prinudchikov felt sick. I was up to conferences is a bit left, so that in any conversation with her had to be on the lookout. All ended well, the documents went to court, he approved my release, came out almost the New Year. I was in university, my status - not convictions, just sick, poor fellow, reborrow. So no obstacle to recovery. I then studied for another five, then, the second great surrendered, lost interest, I do not like this Byzantium.
It's time to finish. Painting for several years, I threw in Inostranka went no more than once a month. Leafed through newspapers, most work is no longer wanted.
Steels with Lapshin and Ruslan "panicle" Kalin's master, then boomed in black. Many new friends, they edge Aivazovsky, no one recognized this was an elite.